Thank you for taking the time to visit my new website and blog! I am so pleased to finally have a place of my own to share my work, life and view of the world through my art.
For those of you who know me well, it's no news that this is very overdue. I guess you could say after waiting 10+ years to put together my own website, I was really taking my sweet time making sure I put my best foot forward. It has always been my commitment to showcase my work in the most professional way and consistently deliver. But I can’t say I regret waiting, because now I am older and wiser, my experiences mean something different to me now. And I am so incredibly thankful for all the opportunities I’ve been blessed with. But life is funny. Even the best-laid plans don’t always go the way you expect them to. And never in a million years did I anticipate the way things would evolve or the adventures I would go on. It all led me to this moment... feeling ready to finally have a voice to accompany the work I’ve been doing all along. Excuse me while I hop on my soapbox… stay with me.
Up until a couple years ago, I was a true Seattleite, born and raised. My world revolved around the life I built in my hometown. Creative expression is my heart and soul, and art has been my first love for as long as I can remember - makeup artistry and modeling became an outlet for expression. While I appreciated the beautiful city I was firmly rooted, I always knew I was destined to experience more of this vast earth; to experience a new level of self discovery which I knew I couldn’t without leaving the only place I ever called home. I had to do things on my own terms, even if that meant I had to make unpopular choices. And my makeup, my work, while exciting and interesting, was beginning to lose its luster and I wasn’t sure how much further I wanted to go. Going through major life-changing events, marrying my soulmate, moving to Germany for a year and traveling all over Europe fulfilled my desires beyond my wildest dreams. It was the experience of a lifetime. I was able to focus on truly enjoying each day without the weight of certain stresses I had always known and I dove headfirst into our new life. I immersed myself with culture, I read more, I pulled out my dusty sketch book and I found joy in the simplest of pleasures. Perhaps the most priceless souvenir we acquired was the photos we captured of our life and travels which will allow us to relive those adventures time and time again. I hope to go into more depth about that phase of life in future posts, but for now I will say that with every single day spent living in our beautiful little Bavarian German town, each city and country visited, taking in all the smells, sounds, tastes and sights… I kept my eyes open wide, saw the beauty in every moment, every breath taken. I will be forever changed from our magical Euro life. And I reemerged the artist I am destined to be.
Eventually, the time came for us to return to the United States. With the struggle in adjusting to our new home on the east coast compounded by inevitable lifestyle changes, we were forced to come back down to earth and think about our future again. What we wanted and what really matters. And accept the reality that we are no longer rooted anywhere, home is wherever we are at this moment - and even that is not within our control. Our life is complicated, full of extreme highs and lows. But one thing I knew to be true, was that it was up to me to do everything in my power to create the happiness I desired and do what fulfills me. It became crucial that I dig deep and do some serious soul searching in order to understand how I to create and share my work in a way that also allows me to share my heart.
I am fully aware that a makeup artist’s job, in many ways, is very superficial. The obvious focus is on outer beauty and the ability to “transform” with the use of tricks and techniques. Major importance placed on what products we use, who’s faces we have worked on and where our work has been seen. And the most popular photos of models emphasizes the female form in ways that can be, quite frankly, perplexing and at times unattainable for the average woman just wanting to feel good about herself when she wakes up in the morning. I am proud to say I have a portfolio with an incredible body of work, both makeup and modeling alike. But the honest truth is that there are so many other aspects of this trade that drives me to do what I do.
The process of makeup, photography and posing for photos is a true form of intimacy. In order to achieve complete harmony and bring visions to fruition, mutual trust and respect - and in some cases, friendship, is absolutely necessary. And that trust must be earned and nurtured to keep the song and dance going. I truly enjoy what makeup can do for women emotionally, the way it can make them feel fearless and confident. It brings me so much joy to help women feel beautiful in every way and help them believe their beauty is limitless. It is not my desire to turn women into what my vision of beauty is, but to bring out the light that radiates inside each and every one of us. I want to passionately empower and reassure every woman I come into contact with that she shouldn't be ashamed of who she is and that it's okay to be different. Connecting my artistic passions; making women feel beautiful, art, photography, to my personal spiritual movement isn't work, it is life. I truly believe an artist’s work is and should be connected to the heart and soul. It is my hope to not only share my story, but also the stories of the incredible people I am blessed to encounter and create art through the process of sharing love and life with one another. Touching hearts.
I believe there is much allure in being an imperfect human. We are always changing, always learning. Multifaceted with many layers. The moment we think we have ourselves figured out, a new chapter in life begins. We must continue to move forward with new challenges to explore ourselves and the world around us with open eyes and loving, forgiving, compassionate hearts. I will be the first to acknowledge that I am no different than any other woman on this earth; on some level we all struggle with self acceptance. But I cannot succeed without staying true to myself, without embracing all of me and loving myself and all my imperfections. I am artsy, inquisitive, stubborn, emotional, passionate, wild child Cancerean… and I love hard.
To every photographer, model, industry professional, loyal supporters and friends I have had the pleasure of connecting with: THANK YOU for having faith in me and being a constant inspiration. Each of you has played a major roll in ensuring I reached this point in life. You have been the most incredible teachers and without you, much of what I've done would not have been possible. I can't say enough how deeply grateful I am for each and every friend I have made through this creative adventure over the years. I hope to continue connecting with you all as I continue to move through this journey. Sharing my heart through the beauty I’m blessed to touch and capture.
This is me, a beautiful mess.